Listening to: Twilight - Cover Drive

'piggybackmeplease.'

Hey people!

Quick update, today we got back our chinese paper and i passed by 0.25 marks which was okay. I actually expected to fail but then, a pass is a good thing. :) Was actually planning to go for the chinese time practice but then, nah. Staying at home to study. Before tuition in the afternoon. Shall not waste my time when i already know that its not going to help me. O: Anyways, good luck to those who are taking the paper tomorrow! :)

Was watching a movie just now. Geek charming. Okay, i know its some dumb movie but its entertaining man. :) Maybe i shall watch another movie after this blog post. :) Gonna have a Eunice night. LOL. Whatever that means. O:

Hey, remember the first time when we talked on the phone. :) Remember how tired you are, you still talked to me? Remember how we used to count all the stars we can find in the night sky through our windows? Remember when you said that the more the stars are, it means you're not tired? Remember how we used to sing nursery rhymes to each other? Remember the first song you sang to me? Remember the time i asked to take a photo together with you? Remember the first time i sat in the bus next to you? Remember the times you teased me? Remember all those memories you left me?

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'Remember the time i asked you to piggy back me?'

Listening to: Dark Side - Kelly Clarkson

'And its true boy.'

Hey people.

Its time for an update about this life of mine.

Just two weeks ago during bible studies, a sudden rush if emotion came flowing. It came totally un expected. Mdm Ray asked us if there is something we want God to help us. The first thing that came into my mind was 'daddy and mummy'. I mean, yes, i need God to help me bring my family back together again but i wasnt planning to share it during the session. But nobody was talking, and so i said it. I couldnt bring myself to finish what i wanted to say, the tears were coming out. 'Why did i even say that' i thought to myself. Why, why bring my family up. I started to sob quietly with Eileen and Mdm PY patting my back. When i went back home, i started thinking. Dad and Mum, both arent talking, we dont live together. How are going to be a family again. There isnt any turst in this family anymore. I cant choose between both of them. Mother's day is coming. Hais.

“In truth a family is what you make it. It is made strong, not by number of heads counted at the dinner table, but by the rituals you help family members create, by the memories you share, by the commitment of time, caring, and love you show to one another, and by the hopes for the future you have as individuals and as a unit.” -MARGE KENNEDY

I cant imagine life without you. You fustrate me at times, you made me cry, you make me laugh, you make me smile. We made loads of memories together. The thought of ending it all kills me inside out. Im not perfect, you arent too. I wanted you to understand, wanted you to listen, wanted you to be happy. I want us to be happy. I've tired, i really tired to ignore all the bad habits all the things i hate. Doesnt it hurt seeing me smile like this all the time. I know, you want me to be happy. But how can i be when im constantly worrying, all about all this? You know i cant stay mad at you. You knew i hate it, you knew it all along. Am i the second option now?

I really hope that better days are really coming. O'levels are getting closer and closer, so it the N'levels. Art is really stressing me out. I hopes things will be better tomorrow. I hate being in this pathetic state. So helpless, so weak and so sad. A real smile will soon come. God, please help me.

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'Good night.'

Listening to: Miss A - Touch

'You touch my heart baby.'

Hey people. :)

Had tuition today at NEX with CH. :) After that, lunched with CH and GT. Too bad the other FAM members couldnt make it. ): But its okay, im looking forward to the FAM movie. :) Heh. GT came over and played a little of audition. :) She left at around 7pm, surfed the net and watch a little of Fairy Tail. :) Bathed and back to the lappy again. :)

PE tomorrow! :) Means 2.4km training. :) YAY. LOL, i dont know why am i getting super excited for 2.4km runs, its unusal. O: Maybe cos SY(BF)  is gonna run with me? :D LOL! FAM breakfast and lunch tomorrow! :) HEH. Can't wait to talk to twin tomorrow too. I've got loads of crap to tell her~ :P Be prepared TWINNE! WAKAKAKA. I hate mondays, there's always 4 periods of TGH. ARGH. ):< I hope there isnt any SSP tomorrow! *prays*

Oooooh! I cant wait for 14 April! :) Cousin's finally getting married to he's GF of 14 years! :) So happy for him. :D Ah, and also i cant wait to wear the dress la, basically. :P Purchased the dress from Topshop. :D Super pretty ans shiny! O.O Yup, shiny! HAHA. Mum bought her dress from Topshop too! I bet she will look super pretty on that day. :) ending her my leafy necklace! :D Will try to post photos on saturday night! :D I CANT WAIT. :)

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'I cried again.'

Listening to: Part Of Me - Katy Perry

'Why cant i feel it?'

Hey people.

This is gonna be a really word-y post. I guess. Today its like *BAM*, emotions is running throughout my whole body. I gotta put it out in words. Talking to someone is no use. Whats the point? I ask myself.

Lets rewind.

My clique. Lets go down memory lane. We were a clique like this since sec 1, sec 2. We were the longest clique i can say to stay together no matter what our problems we have with each other. To me, you girls are everything to me. Even though we dont exchange frequent messages or calls after school or during the weekends, it so amazing how we can be so close. Its the friendship i would say. That close friendship. I will never give anything uo for this friendship i have with these wonderful girls. :') I just hope that we will remain strong togther no matter what. I just want everything to be alright. I want everybody to be happy. Im sorry to you if i've done any wrong to you. I know i cant make someone like me. But hey, im treating you equally and the same, why cant you do that to me too?

I finished reading the book which i've purchase from school and it left me a really deep impression. My relationship. Is it gonna be the same. Look at us now, we dont text as often, we dont call, we hardly spent time with each other. i've tried. Have you? Have you even asked me out or am i the one asking? Am i boring, is it cos i dont grow up from the same side as you thats why im the good girl. I've been thinking about us a lot lately, and its giving me a headache. If this really continues, i wonder if it will fade along with it. I really hope it doesnt..

Maybe its just me, maybe im just being an insecure bitch.

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'Whats the point of saying you miss me yet you dont do anything at all?'

Listening to: Call My Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen

'Someone take me to paris please.'

Hey! :D

Its been months since i updated this. :) HAHAH. I doubt anybody would be reading this anyways. Flashbacks. There's so much to blog about.

Im really disappointed to the extend to believe that isit a curse? Why must it be this way? Are we gonna let this side and distance ourselves with each other? We have been friends for a very long time already. Its gonna be our last year already, and we let something so small come in between us? What are we to you? Are we just some ordinary subsitute when your 'main person' isnt there? Its really very upsetting..

Aloy's sick. ): Its the second day already. Haish. Take care! <3 :) Wah yesterday ah, kenna bully buy my awesome friends like siao! O: Haiyo! ): HAHA! But it was fun la. Love them so much! <3 Heh.

Been auditioning again. :) HEHE. With my FAM, THRILA. <3 Wakakaka! Especially with my boyfriend! :D *winks*

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'We've been drifting apart dont you think?'

Listening to: Say You Like Me - We The Kings

'Youuuuuuuuuuuuu. :)'

Hey people! :D

School's started. Sian like argh. Okay, so my blog is dead therefore i shall blog today. :D I've got so much to say! But its like so diffcult to type everything out.. Hmm.. Well, all i can remember is im offically 16! :D YAY. Okay, all thanks to my lovely friends and boyfriend. :) Thanks Eileen, JingYi, JingHui, Cheryl.H, Cheryl.L, Charyl, Darren and Aloysius! :D Thank you guys so much for celebrating it for me! :) And thanks to all the people who celebrated it with me. :) Heh. :D <3

Jing Hui and Twin are not in the picture. But thanks so much for the surprise and cake! :D <3 Love you all! :D

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'Its good to be surrounded by awesome people. :D'

Listening to: Ours - Taylor Swift

'Just FML.'

Hey people.

Two days ago, Pei Shi, Jiayin and Chengyau came over to stay. :) Had loads of fun. Awesome buddies, 6 years of friendship. Took loads of photos, stalk people of facebook, played the guitar, sang, talked and play monopoly! Aweosome shit kay! :D

Awesome people kay! :D <3

Today at work is damn fucked up can. -.- Stupid lady, fuck sia, change drink, change garlic bread. I suay like like key wrong order for her wait so long then she cancel then want to complain to manager. So screwed for tomorrow. FML. -.- But what the fuck, who cares. -.-

Seriously hoping that it will be better tomorrow..

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'I seriously dont give a fuck anymore.'

Listening to: Angel With a Shotgun - The Cab

'Come. Here. Right. Now.'

Hey peopleee.

Had work today. :) Was really tiring. But okay okay lah. Made a mistakes again, luckily Jonah never scold. :/ I like hyper during work only, keep laughing for no vaild reason. :D Anyways, it 1.27am now. Feeling really tired. Oh! A !@#$%!@#$^&*%#@! GUY scold me PAH JIAO when i asked if they wanted any drinks when i was taking their order. WTF. -.- Hello, its my job to ask you asshole. -.- You think you Asian dye Blond hair nice ah, like shit like that can. -'- TSK, pissed like angry bird. :/ Like my yellow birdie on my bed. :) Did till closing today. :) AWESOME SHIT. :) BUT VERY TIRING SIA.

Gonna have bible studies tomorrow. :) YAY! :D I cant wait. Hmm, then work till night. Should i do closing tomorrow? :/ See how lah hor.

I miss you. </3

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'Hais, i hope you will be right in front of me when i wake up.'

Listening to: Hit The Lights - Selena Gomez

'Yes, how i wish youre here with me.'

Hey people. :)

Firstly, i would like to say Happy 9th month Dear. :) I love you! Even though we didnt really spent time together or even get to see each other today, i love the little surprise you left behind.

Today wansnt really my day. During work, i made a lot of mistakes, wrong orders, serve wrong food. Really not in the mood, fought back tears and tried to smile. Infact it really hurts inside. On top of that people kept talking about you. I dont blame them really. But, in my mind i was like please dont talk about it anymore. But later, work was more enjoyable. Im really gald. :')

The Past.

Was looking through my previous blog post, there were tears, joy, happiness and anger. Lets type them out, there's nothing to hide.

Jinghui used to be my dearest, i miss that.

I used to have blog wars with Cheryl. L. Im really sorry. I was young and immature.

Eileen and Elgin used to be my MSN buddies.

I used to talk about Aloy.

There are still many many more.

There are so many things that i miss, i miss them. I really do. I wonder if time could just bring everything back. Things are just the way it was last time.

Tomorrow, Work. Hmmm. I dont know why but im looking forward to work. :/ Will try to update blog more often. :)

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'I hope you wont take days like these so lightly, im sorry but i couldnt take it lightly.'

Listening to: Go Screw Yourself - Avery

'I watched as the petals fell to the ground.'

Hey people. :D

Woke up quite late today. :) Went out to eat with parents then went to get my uniform from pizza hut. :D Starting work on tue~ KEKE. Then walked arounf Nex and stuff and then went home. :D

I cant wait for tomorrow! :D <3 HEHEHE! OMG i seriously cant wait to see you. :) <3

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'Hi stars. :)'